It was when curiosity about Gatsby was at its highest that the lights in his house failed to go on one Saturday night — and, as obscurely as it had be¬gun, his career as Trimalchio was over. Only gra¬dually did I become aware that the automobiles which turned expectantly into his drive stayed for just a minute and then drove sulkily away. Wonder¬ing if he were sick I went over to find out — an unfamiliar butler with a villainous face squinted at me suspiciously from the door.
Is Mr. Gatsby sick?
Nope. After a pause he added "sir" in a dilatory, grudging way.
I hadn't seen him around, and I was rather wor¬ried. Tell him Mr. Carraway came over.
Who? he demanded rudely.
Carraway. All right, I'll tell him.
Abruptly he slammed the door.
My Finn informed me that Gatsby had dismissed every servant in his house a week ago and replaced them with half a dozen others, who never went into West Egg Village to .be bribed by the tradesmen, but ordered moderate supplies over the telephone. The grocery boy reported that the kitchen looked like a pigsty, and the general opinion in the village was that the new people weren't servants at all.
Next day Gatsby called me on the phone.
Going away? I inquired.
No, old sport.
I hear you fired all your servants.
I wanted somebody who wouldn't gossip. Daisy comes over quite often — in the afternoons.
So the whole caravansary had fallen in like a card house at the disapproval in her eyes.
They're some people Wolfsheim wanted to do something for. They're all brothers and sisters. They used to run a small hotel.
He was calling up at Daisy's request — would I come to lunch at her house to-morrow? Miss Baker would be there. Half an hour later Daisy herself te¬lephoned and seemed relieved to find that I was coming. Something was up. And yet I couldn't believe that they would choose this occasion for a scene — especially for the rather harrowing scene that Gatsby had outlined in the garden.
The next day was broiling, almost the last, certain¬ly the warmest, of the summer. As my train emerged from the tunnel into sunlight, only the hot whistles of the National Biscuit Company broke the sim¬mering hush at noon. The straw seats of the car ho¬vered on the edge of combustion; the woman next to me perspired delicately for a while into her white shirtwaist, and then, as her newspaper dampened under her fingers, lapsed despairingly into deep heat with a desolate cry. Her pocket-book slapped to the floor.
Oh, my! she gasped.
I picked it up with a weary bend and handed it back to her, holding it at arm's length and by the extreme tip of the corners to indicate that I had no designs upon it — but every one near by, including the woman, suspected me just the same.
Hot! said the conductor to familiar faces. "Some weather! ... Hot! ... Hot! ... Hot! ... Is it hot enough for you? Is it hot? Is it... ?"
My commutation ticket came back to me with a dark stain from his hand. That any one should care in this heat whose flushed lips he kissed, whose head made damp the pajama pocket over his heart!
... Through the hall of the Buchanans' house blew a faint wind, carrying the sound of the telephone bell out to Gatsby and me as we waited at the door.
The master's body! roared the butler into the mouthpiece. "I'm sorry, madame, but we can't fur¬nish it — it's far too hot to touch this noon!"
What he really said was: "Yes ... Yes ... I'll see."
He set down the receiver and came toward us, glistening slightly, to take our stiff straw hats.
Madame expects you in the salon! he cried, need¬lessly indicating the direction. In this heat every extra gesture was an affront to the common store of life.
The room, shadowed well with awnings, was dark and cool. Daisy and Jordan lay upon an enormous couch, like silver idols weighing down their own white dresses against the singing breeze of the fans.
We can't move, they said together.
Jordan's fingers, powdered white over their tan, rested for a moment in mine.
And Mr. Thomas Buchanan, the athlete? I in¬quired.
Simultaneously I heard his voice, gruff, muffled, husky, at the hall telephone.
Gatsby stood in the centre of the crimson car¬pet and gazed around with fascinated eyes. Daisy watched him and laughed, her sweet, exciting laugh;
a tiny gust of powder rose from her bosom into the air.
The rumor is, whispered Jordan, "that that's Tom's girl on the telephone."
We were silent. The voice in the hall rose high with annoyance: "Very well, then, I won't sell you the car at all. ... I'm under no obligations to you at all ... and as for your bothering me about it at lunch time, I won't stand that at all!"
Holding down the receiver, said Daisy cynically.
No, he's not, I assured her. "It's a bona-fide deal. I happen to know about it."
Tom flung open the door, blocked out its space for a moment with his thick body, and hurried into the room.
Mr. Gatsby! He put out his broad, flat hand with 4 well-concealed dislike. "I'm glad to see you, sir. ... Nick. ..."
Make us a cold drink, cried Daisy.
As he left the room again she got up and went over to Gatsby and pulled his face down, kissing him on the mouth.
You know I love you, she murmured.
You forget there's a lady present, said Jordan.
Daisy looked around doubtfully.
You kiss Nick too.
What a low, vulgar girl!
1 don't care! cried Daisy, and began to clog on the brick fireplace. Then she remembered the heat and sat down guiltily on the couch just as a freshly laundered nurse leading a little girl came into the room.
Bles-sed pre-cious, she crooned, holding out her arms. "Come to your own mother that loves you."
The child, relinquished by the nurse, rushed across the room and rooted shyly into her mother's dress.
The bles-sed pre-cious! Did mother get powder on your old yellowy hair? Stand up now, and say — How-de-do.
Gatsby and I in turn leaned down and took the small reluctant hand. Afterward he kept looking at the child with surprise. I don't think he had ever really believed in its existence before.
I got dressed before luncheon, said the child, turning eagerly to Daisy.
That's because your mother wanted to show you off. Her face bent into the single wrinkle of the small white neck. "You dream, you. You absolute little dream."
Yes, admitted the child calmly. "Aunt Jordan's got on a white dress too."
How do you like mother's friends? Daisy turned her around so that she faced Gatsby. "Do you think they're pretty?"
She doesn't look like her father, explained Daisy. "She looks like me. She's got my hair and shape of the face."
Daisy sat back upon the couch. The nurse took a step forward and held out her hand.
With a reluctant backward glance the well-discip¬lined child held to her nurse's hand and was pulled out the door, just as Tom came back, preceding four gin rickeys that clicked full of ice.
Gatsby took up his drink.
They certainly look cool, he said, with visible tension.
We drank in long, greedy swallows.
I read somewhere that the sun's getting hotter every year, said Tom genially. "It seems that pretty soon the earth's going to fall into the sun — or waft a minute — it's just the opposite — the sun's getting colder every year."
Come outside, he suggested to Gatsby, "I'd like you to have a look at the place."
I went with them out to the veranda. On the green Sound, stagnant in the heat, one small sail crawled slowly toward the fresher sea. Gatsby's eyes followed it momentarily; he raised his hand and pointed across the bay.
I'm right across from you.
So you are.
Our eyes lifted over the rose-beds and the hot lawn and the weedy refuse of the dog-days alongshore. Slowly the white wings of the boat moved against the blue cool limit of the sky. Ahead lay the scalloped ocean and the abounding blessed isles.
There's sport for you, said Tom, nodding. "I'd like to be out there with him for about an hour."
We had luncheon in the dining-room, darkened too against the heat, and drank down nervous gayety with the cold ale.
What'll we do with ourselves this afternoon? cried Daisy, "and the day after that, and the next thirty years?"
Don't be morbid, Jordan said. "Life starts all over again when it gets crisp in the fall."
But it's so hot, insisted Daisy, on the verge of tears, "and everything's so confused. Let's all go to town!"
Her voice struggled on through the heat, beating against it, molding its senselessness into forms.
I've heard of making a garage out of a stable, Tom was saying to Gatsby, "but I'm the first man who ever made a stable out of a garage."
Who wants to go to town? demanded Daisy in¬sistently. Gatsby's eyes floated toward her. "Ah," she cried, "you look so cool."
Their eyes met, and they stared together at each other, alone in space. With an effort she glanced down at the table.
You always look so cool, she repeated.
She had told him that she loved him, and Tom Buchanan saw. He was astounded. His mouth opened a little, and he looked at Gatsby, and then back at Daisy as if he had just recognized her as some one he knew a long time ago.
You resemble the advertisement of the man, she went on innocently. "You know the advertisement of the man ——"
All right, broke in Tom quickly, "I'm perfectly willing to go to town. Come on — we're all going to town."
He got up, his eyes still flashing between Gatsby and his wife. No one moved.
Come on! His temper cracked a little. "What's the matter, anyhow? If we're going to town, let's start."
His hand, trembling with his effort at self-control, bore to his lips the last of his glass of ale. Daisy's voice got us to our feet and out on to the blazing gravel drive.
Are we just going to go? she objected. "Like this? Aren't we going to let any one smoke a ciga¬rette first?"
Everybody smoked all through lunch.
Oh, let's have fun, she begged him. "It's too hot to fuss."
He didn't answer.
Have it your own way, she said. "Come on, Jordan."
They went up-stairs to get ready while we three men stood there shuffling the hot pebbles with our feet. A silver curve of the moon hovered already in the western sky. Gatsby started to speak, changed his mind, but not before Tom wheeled and faced him expectantly.
Have you got your stables here? asked Gatsby with an effort.
About a quarter of a mile down the road
I don't see the idea of going to town, broke out Tom savagely. "Women get these notions in their heads ——"
Shall we take anything to drink? called Daisy from an upper window.
I'll get some whiskey, answered Tom. He went inside.
Gatsby turned to me rigidly:
I can't say anything in his house, old sport.
She's got an indiscreet voice, I remarked. "It's full of —" I hesitated.
Her voice is full of money, he said suddenly.
That was it. I'd never understood before. It was full of money — that was the inexhaustible charm that rose and fell in it, the jingle of it, the cymbals' song of it. ... High in a white palace the king's daughter, the golden girl. . . .
Tom came out of the house wrapping a quart bottle in a towel, followed by Daisy and Jordan wearing small tight hats of metallic cloth and car¬rying light capes over their arms.
Shall we all go in my car? suggested Gatsby. He felt the hot, green leather of the seat. "I ought to have left it in the shade."
Is it standard shift? demanded Tom.
Well, you take my coupe and let me drive your car to town.
The suggestion was distasteful to Gatsby.
I don't think there's much gas, he objected.
Plenty of gas, said Tom boisterously. He looked at the gauge. "And if it runs out I can stop at a drugstore. You can buy anything at a drugstore nowadays."
A pause followed this apparently pointless re¬mark. Daisy looked at Tom frowning, and an inde¬finable expression, at once definitely unfamiliar and vaguely recognizable, as if I had only heard it de¬scribed in words, passed over Gatsby's face.
Come on, Daisy, said Tom, pressing her with his hand toward Gatsby's car. "I'll take you in this circus wagon."
He opened the door, but she moved out from the circle of his arm.
You take Nick and Jordan. We'll follow you in the coupe.
She walked close to Gatsby, touching his coat with her hand. Jordan and Tom and I got into the front seat of Gatsby's car, Tom pushed the unfami¬liar gears tentatively, and we shot off into the op¬pressive heat, leaving them out of sight behind.
Did you see that? demanded Tom.
He looked at me keenly, realizing that Jordan and I must have known all along.
You think I'm pretty dumb, don't you? he sug¬gested. "Perhaps I am, but I have a — almost a se¬cond sight, sometimes, that tells me what to do. Maybe you don't believe that, but science ——-"
He paused. The immediate contingency overtook him, pulled him back from the edge of the theore¬tical abyss.
I've made a small investigation of this fellow, he continued. "I could have gone deeper if I'd known ——"
Do you mean you've been to a medium? inquired Jordan humorously.
What? Confused, he stared at us as we laughed. "A medium?"
About Gatsby! No, I haven't. I said I'd been making a small investigation of his past.
And you found he was an Oxford man, said Jordan helpfully.
An Oxford man! He was incredulous. "Like hell he is! He wears a pink suit."
Nevertheless he's an Oxford man.
Oxford, New Mexico, snorted Tom contemptuously, "or something like that."
Listen, Tom. If you're such a snob, why did you invite him to lunch? demanded Jordan crossly.
Daisy invited him; she knew him before we were married — God knows where!
We were all irritable now with the fading ale, and aware of it we drove for a while in silence. Then as Doctor T. J. Eckleburg's faded eyes came into sight down the road, I remembered Gatsby's caution about gasoline.
We've got enough to get us to town, said Tom.
But there's a garage right here, objected Jor¬dan. "I don't want to get stalled in this baking
Tom threw on both brakes impatiently, and we slid to an abrupt dusty spot under Wilson's sign. After a moment the proprietor emerged from the interior of his establishment and gazed hollow-eyed at the car.
Let's have some gas! cried Tom roughly. "What do you think we stopped for — to admire the view?"
I'm sick, said Wilson without moving. "Been sick all day."
What's the matter?
I'm all run down.
Well, shall I help myself? Tom demanded. "You sounded well enough on the phone."
. With an effort Wilson left the shade and support of the doorway and, breathing hard, unscrewed the cap of the tank. In the sunlight his face was green.
I didn't mean to interrupt your lunch, he said. "But I need money pretty bad, and I was wonder¬ing what you were going to do with your old
car." "How do you like this one?" inquired Tom. "I
bought it last week."
It's a nice yellow one, said Wilson, as he strained at the handle.
Like to buy it?
Big chance, Wilson smiled faintly. "No, but I could make some money on the other."
What do you want money for, all of a sudden?
I've been here too long. I want to get away. My wife and I want to go West.
Your wife does, exclaimed Tom, startled.
She's been talking about it for ten years. He rested for a moment against the pump, shading his eyes. "And now she's going whether she wants to or not. I'm going to get her away."
The coupe flashed by us with a flurry of dust and the flash of a waving hand.
What do I owe you? demanded Tom harshly.
I just got wised up to something funny the last two days, remarked Wilson. "That's why I want to get away. That's why I been bothering you about the car."
What do I owe you?
The relentless beating heat was beginning to con¬fuse me and I had a bad moment there before I realized that so far his suspicions hadn't alighted on Tom. He had discovered that Myrtle had some sort of life apart from him in another world, and the shock had made him physically sick. I stared at him and then at Tom, who had made a parallel disco¬very less than an hour before — and it occured to me that there was no difference between men, in in¬telligence or race, so profound as the difference be¬tween the sick and the well. Wilson was so sick that he looked guilty, unforgivably guilty — as if he just got some poor girl with child.
I'll let you have that car, said Tom. "I'll send it over to-morrow afternoon."
That locality was always vaguely disquieting, even in the broad glare of afternoon, and now I turned my head as though I had been warned of something behind. Over the ashheaps the giant eyes of Doctor T. J. Eckleburg kept their vigil, but I per¬ceived, after a moment, that the other eyes were regarding us less than twenty feet away.
In one of the windows over the garage the cur¬tains had been moved aside a little, and Myrtle Wil¬son was peering down at the car. So engrossed was she that she had no consciousness of being observed, and one emotion after another crept into her face like objects into a slowly developing picture. Her expression was curiously familiar — it was an expression I had often seen on women's faces, but on Myrtle Wilson's face it seemed purposeless and inexplicable until I realized that her eyes, wide with jealous terror, were fixed not on Tom, but on Jordan Baker, whom she took to be his wife.
There is no confusion like the confusion of a simple mind, and as we drove away Tom was feeling the hot whips of panic. His wife and his mistress, until an hour ago secure and inviolate, were slip¬ping precipitately from his control. Instinct made him step on the accelerator with the double purpose of overtaking Daisy and leaving Wilson behind, and we sped along toward Astoria at fifty miles an hour, until, among the spidery girders of the elevated, we came in sight of the easygoing blue coupe.
Those big movies around Fiftieth Street are cool, suggested Jordan. "I love New York on summer af¬ternoons when every one's away. There's something very sensuous about it — overripe, as if all sorts of funny fruits were going to fall into your hands."
The word "sensuous" had the effect of further dis¬quieting Tom, but before he could invent a protest the coupe came to a stop, and Daisy signalled us to draw up alongside. "Where are we going?" she cried. "How about the movies?"
It's so hot, she complained. "You go. We'll ride around and meet you after." With an effort her wit rose faintly, "We'll meet you on some corner. I'll be the man smoking two cigarettes."
We can't argue about it here, Tom said impa¬tiently, as a truck gave out a cursing whistle behind us. "You follow me to the south side of Central Park, in front of the Plaza."
Several times he turned his head and looked back for their car, and if the traffic delayed them he slowed up until they came into sight. I think he was afraid they would dart down a side street and out of his life forever.
But they didn't. And we all took the less explicable step of engaging the parlor of a suite in the Plaza Hotel.
The prolonged and tumultuous argument that ended by herding us into that room eludes me, though I have a sharp physical memory that, in the course of it, my underwear kept climbing like a damp snake around my legs and intermittent beads of sweat raced cool across my back. The notion originated with Daisy's suggestion that we hire five bath¬rooms and take cold baths, and then assumed more tangible form as "a place to have a mint julep." Each of us said over and over that it was a "crazy idea"— we all talked at once to a baffled clerk and thought, or pretended to think, that we were being very funny . . .
The room was large and stifling, and, though it was already four o'clock, opening the windows ad¬mitted only a gust of hot shrubbery from the Park. Daisy went to the mirror and stood with her back to us, fixing her hair.
It's a swell suite, whispered Jordan respectful¬ly, and every one laughed.
Open another window, commanded Daisy, with¬out turning around.
There aren't any more.
Well, we'd better telephone for an axe ——
The thing to do is to forget about the heat, said Tom impatiently. "You make it ten times worse by crabbing about it."
He unrolled the bottle of whiskey from the towel and put it on the table.
Why not let her alone, old sport? remarked Gatsby. "You're the one that wanted to come to town."
There was a moment of silence. The telephone book slipped from its nail and splashed to the floor, whereupon Jordan whispered, "Excuse me" — but this time no one laughed.
I'll pick it up, I offered.
I've got it. Gatsby examined the parted string, muttered "Hum!" in an interested way, and tossed the book on a chair.
That's a great expression of yours, isn't it? said Tom sharply.
All this 'old sport' business. Where'd you pick-that up?
Now see here, Tom, said Daisy, turning around from the mirror, "if you're going to make personal remarks I won't stay here a minute. Call up and order some ice for the mint julep."
As Tom took up the receiver the compressed heat exploded into sound and we were listening to the portentous chords of Mendelssohn's Wedding March from the ballroom below.
Imagine marrying anybody in this heat! cried Jordan dismally.
Still — I was married in the middle of June, Daisy remembered, "Louisville in June! Somebody fainted. Who was it fainted, Tom?"
Biloxi, he answered shortly.
A man named Biloxi. 'Blocks' Biloxi, and he made boxes — that's a fact — and he was from Bi¬loxi, Mississippi.
They carried him into my house, appended Jor¬dan, "because we lived just two doors from the church. And he stayed three weeks, until Daddy told him he had to get out. The day after he left Daddy died." After a moment she added as if she
might have sounded irreverent, "There wasn't any connection."
I used to know a Bill Biloxi from Memphis, I remarked.
That was his cousin. I knew his whole family history before he left. He gave me an aluminum put¬ter that I use today.
The music had died down as the ceremony began and now a long cheer floated in at the window, fol¬lowed by intermittent cries of "Yea—ea—ea!" and finally by a burst of jazz as the dancing began.
We're getting old, said Daisy. "If we were young we'd rise and dance."
Remember Biloxi, Jordan warned her. "Where'd you know him, Tom?"
Biloxi? He concentrated with an effort. "I didn't know him. He was a friend of Daisy's."
He was not, she denied. "I'd never seen him before. He came down in the private car."
Well, he said he knew you. He said he was raised in Louisville. Asa Bird brought him around at the last minute and asked if we had room for him.
Jordan smiled. "He was probably bumming his way home. He told me he was president of your class at Yale."
Tom and I looked at each other blankly.
First place, we didn't have any president ——
Gatsby's foot beat a short, restless tattoo and Tom eyed him suddenly.
By the way, Mr. Gatsby, I understand you're an Oxford man.
Oh, yes, I understand you went to Oxford.
Yes — I went there.
A pause. Then Tom's voice incredulous and insult¬ing:
You must have gone there about the time Biloxi went to New Haven.
Another pause. A waiter knocked and came in with crushed mint and ice, but the silence was un¬broken by his "thank you" and the soft closing of the door. This tremendous detail was to be cleared up at last.
I told you I went there, said Gatsby.
I heard you, but I'd like to know when.
“It was in nineteen-nineteen. I only stayed five months. That's why I can't really call myself an Oxford man."
Tom glanced around to see if we mirrored his unbelief. But we were all looking at Gatsby.
It was an opportunity they gave to some of the officers after the Armistice, he continued. "We could go to any of the universities in England or France."
I wanted to get up and slap him on the back. I had one of those renewals of complete faith in him that I'd experienced before.
Daisy rose, smiling faintly, and went to the table.
Open the whiskey, Tom, she ordered, "and I'll make you a mint julep. Then you won't seem so stu¬pid to yourself. . . . Look at the mint!"
Wait a minute, snapped Tom, "I want to ask Mr. Gatsby one more question."
Go on, Gatsby said politely.
What kind of a row are you trying to cause in my house anyhow?
They were out in the open at last and Gatsby was content.
He isn't causing a row, Daisy looked desperate¬ly from one to the other: "You're causing a row. Please have a little self-control."
Self-control! repeated Tom incredulously. "I suppose the latest thing is to sit back and let Mr. Nobody from Nowhere make love to your wife. Well, if that's the idea you can count me out. . . . Nowadays people begin by sneering at family life and family institutions, and next they'll throw every¬thing overboard and have intermarriage between black and white."
Flushed with his impassioned gibberish, he saw himself standing alone on the last barrier of civilization.
We're all white here, murmured Jordan.
I know I'm not very popular. I don't give big parties. I suppose you've got to make your house into a pigsty in order to have any friends — in the modern world.
Angry as I was, as we all were, I was tempted to laugh whenever he opened his mouth. The transi¬tion from libertine to prig was so complete.
I've got something to tell you, old sport — be¬gan Gatsby. But Daisy guessed at his intention.
Please don't! she interrupted helplessly. "Please let's all go home. Why don't we all go home?"
That's a good idea. I got up. "Come on, Tom. Nobody wants a drink."
I want to know what Mr. Gatsby has to tell me.
Your wife doesn't love you, said Gatsby. "She's never loved you. She loves me."
You must be crazy! exclaimed Tom automati¬cally.
Gatsby sprang to his feet, vivid with excitement.
She never loved you, do you hear? he cried. "She only married you because I was poor and she was tired of waiting for me. It was a terrible mis¬take, but in her heart she never loved any one ex¬cept me!"
At this point Jordan and I tried to go, but Tom and Gatsby insisted with competitive firmness that we remain — as though neither of them had any¬thing to conceal and it would be a privilege to par¬take vicariously of their emotions.
Sit down, Daisy, Tom's voice groped unsuccess¬fully for the paternal note. "What's been going on? 1 want to hear all about it."
I told you what's been going on, said Gatsby. "Going on for five years —and you didn't know."
Tom turned to Daisy sharply.
You've been seeing this fellow for five years?
Not seeing, said Gatsby. "No, we couldn't meet. But both of us loved each other all that time, old sport, and you didn't know."
Oh — that's all. Tom tapped his thick fingers together like a clergyman and leaned back in his chair.
You're crazy! he exploded. "I can't speak about what happened five years ago because I didn't know Daisy then — and I'll be damned if I see how you got within a mile of her unless you brought the gro¬ceries to the back door. But all the rest of that's a God damned lie. Daisy loved me when she married me and she loves me now."
No, said Gatsby, shaking his head.
She does, though. The trouble is that sometimes she gets foolish ideas in her head and doesn't know what she's doing. He nodded sagely. "And what's more I love Daisy too. Once in a while I go off on a spree and make a fool of myself, but I always come back, and in my heart I love her all the time."
You're revolting, said Daisy. She turned to me, and her voice, dropping an octave lower, filled the room with thrilling scorn: "Do you know why we left Chicago? I'm surprised that they didn't treat you to the story of that little spree."
Gatsby walked over and stood beside her.
Daisy, that's all over now, he said earnestly. "It doesn't matter any more. Just tell him the truth — that you never loved him — and it's all wiped out forever."
She looked at him blindly. "Why — how could I love him — possibly?"
You never loved him.
She hesitated. Her eyes fell on Jordan and me with a sort of appeal, as though she realized at last what she was doing — and as though she had never, all along, intended doing anything at all. But it was done now. It was too late.
I never loved him, she said, with perceptible reluctance.
Not at Kapiolani? demanded Tom suddenly.
From the ballroom beneath, muffled and suffo¬cating chords were drifting up on hot waves of air.
Not that day I carried you down from the Punch Bowl to keep your shoes dry? There was a husky tenderness in his tone. . . . "Daisy?"
Please don't. Her voice was cold, but the ran¬cor was gone from it. She looked at Gatsby. "There, Jay," she said—but her hand as she tried to light a cigarette was trembling. Suddenly she threw the cigarette and the burning match on the carpet.
Oh, you want too much! she cried to Gatsby. "I love you now — isn't that enough? I can't help what's past." She began to sob helplessly. "I did love him once — but I loved you too."
Gatsby's eyes opened and closed.
You loved me too? he repeated.
Even that's a lie, said Tom savagely. "She didn't know you were alive. Why — there're things between Daisy and me that you'll never know, things that neither of us can ever forget."
The words seemed to bite physically into Gatsby.
I want to speak to Daisy alone, he insisted. "She's all excited now ——"
Even alone I can't say I never loved Tom, she admitted in a pitiful voice. "It wouldn't be true."
Of course it wouldn't, agreed Tom.
She turned to her husband.
As if it mattered to you, she said.
Of course it matters. I'm going to take better care of you from now on.
You don't understand, said Gatsby, with a touch of panic. "You're not going to take care of her any more."
I'm not? Tom opened his eyes wide and laughed. He could afford to control himself now. "Why's that?"
Daisy's leaving you.
I am, though, she said with a visible effort.
She's not leaving me! Tom's words suddenly leaned down over Gatsby. "Certainly not for a com¬mon swindler who'd have to steal the ring he put on her finger."
I won't stand this! cried Daisy. "Oh, please let's get out."
Who are you, anyhow? broke out Tom. "You're one of that bunch that hangs around with Meyer Wolfsheim — that much I happen to know. I've made a little investigation, into your affairs—and I'll carry it further to-morrow."
You can suit yourself about that, old sport, said Gatsby steadily.
I found out what your 'drugstores' were. He turned to us and spoke rapidly. "He and this Wolf¬sheim bought up a lot of side-street drugstores here and in Chicago and sold grain alcohol over the counter. That's one of his little stunts. I picked him for a bootlegger the first time I saw him, and I wasn't far wrong."
What about it? said Gatsby politely. "I guess your friend Walter Chase wasn't too proud to come in on it."
And you left him in the lurch, didn't you? You let him go to jail for a month over in New Jersey. God! You ought to hear Walter on the subject of you.
He came to us dead broke. He was very glad to pick up some money, old sport.
Don't you call me 'old sport'! cried Tom. Gats¬by said nothing. "Walter could have you up on the betting laws too, but Wolfsheim scared him into shutting his mouth."
That unfamiliar yet recognizable look was back again in Gatsby's face.
That drugstore business was just small change, continued Tom slowly, "but you've got something on now that Walter's afraid to tell me about."
I glanced at Daisy, who was staring terrified between Gatsby and her husband, and at Jordan, who had begun to balance an invisible but absorb¬ing object on the tip of her chin. Then I turned back to Gatsby — and was startled at his expression. He looked — and this is said in all contempt for the babbled slander of his garden—as if he had "killed a man." For a moment the set of his face could be described in just that fantastic way.
It passed, and he began to talk excitedly to Dai¬sy, denying everything, defending his name against accusations that had not been made. But with every word she was drawing further and further into her¬self, so he gave that up, and only the dead dream fought on as the afternoon slipped away, trying to touch what v/as no longer tangible, struggling un¬happily, undespairingly, toward that lost voice across the room.
The voice begged again to go.
Please, Tom! I can't stand this any more.
Her frightened eyes told that whatever intentions, whatever courage she had had, were definitely gone.
You two start on home. Daisy, said Tom. "In Mr. Gatsby's car."
She looked at Tom, alarmed now, but he insisted with magnanimous scorn.
Go on. He won't annoy you. I think he realizes that his presumptuous little flirtation is over.
They were gone, without a word, snapped out, made accidental, isolated, like ghosts, even from our pity.
After a moment Tom got up and began wrapping the unopened bottle of whiskey in the towel.
Want any of this stuff? Jordan? ... Nick?
I didn't answer.
Nick? He asked again.
No ... I just remembered that today's my birthday.
I was thirty. Before me stretched the portentous, menacing road of a new decade.
It was seven o'clock when we got into the coupe with him and started for Long Island. Tom talked incessantly, exulting and laughing, but his voice was as remote from Jordan and me as the foreign clamor on the sidewalk or the tumult of the eleva¬ted overhead. Human sympathy has its limits, and we were content to let all their tragic arguments fade with the city lights behind. Thirty — the pro¬mise of a decade of loneliness, a thinning list of single men to know, a thinning briefcase of enthu¬siasm, thinning hair. But there was Jordan beside me, who, unlike Daisy, was too wise ever to carry well-forgotten dreams from age to age. As we passed over the dark bridge her wan face fell lazily against my coat's shoulder and the formidable stroke of thirty died away with the reassuring pressure of her hand.
So we drove on toward death through the cooling twilight.
The young Greek, Michaelis, who ran the coffee joint beside the ashheaps was the principal witness at the inquest. He had slept through the heat until after five, when he strolled over to the garage, and found George Wilson sick in his office — really sick, pale as his own pale hair and shaking all over. Michaelis advised him to go to bed, but Wilson re¬fused, saying that he'd miss a lot of business if he did. While his neighbor was trying to persuade him a violent racket broke out overhead.
I've got my wife locked in up there, explained Wilson calmly. "She's going to stay there till the day after to-morrow, and then we're going to move away."
Michaelis was astonished; they had been neigh¬bors for four years, and Wilson had never seemed faintly capable of such a statement. Generally he was one of these worn-out men: when he wasn't working, he sat on a chair in the doorway and stared at the people and the cars that passed along the road. When any one spoke to him he invariably laughed in an agreeable, colorless way. He was his wife's man and not his own.
So naturally Michaelis tried to find out what had happened, but Wilson wouldn't say a word — in¬stead he began to throw curious, suspicious glances at his visitor and ask him what he'd been doing at certain times on certain days. Just as the latter was getting uneasy, some workmen came past the door bound for his restaurant, and Michaelis took the opportunity to get away, intending to come back later. But he didn't. He supposed he forgot to, that's all. When he came outside again, a little after se¬ven, he was reminded of the conversation because he heard Mrs. Wilson's voice, loud and scolding, down-stairs in the garage.
Beat me! he heard her cry. "Throw me down and beat me, you dirty little coward!"
A moment later she rushed out into the dusk, waving her hands and shouting — before he could move from his door the business was over.
The "death car" as the newspapers called it, didn't stop; it came out of the gathering darkness, wavered tragically for a moment, and then disap¬peared around the next bend. Michaelis wasn't even sure of its color — he told the first policeman that it was light green. The other car, the one going toward New York, came to rest a hundred yards beyond, and its driver hurried back to where Myrtle Wilson, her life violently extinguished, knelt in the road and mingled her thick dark blood with the dust.
Michaelis and this man reached her first, but when they had torn open her shirtwaist, still damp with perspiration, they saw that her left breast was swinging loose like a flap, and there was no need to listen for the heart beneath. The mouth was wide open and ripped at the corners, as though she had choked a little in giving up the tremendous vitality she had stored so long.
We saw the three or four automobiles and the crowd when we were still some distance away.
Wreck! said Tom. "That's good. Wilson'll have a little business at last."
He slowed down, but still without any intention of stopping until, as we came nearer, the hushed, intent faces of the people at the garage door made him automatically put on the brakes.
We'll take a look, he said doubtfully, "just a look."
I became aware now of a hollow, wailing sound which issued incessantly from the garage, a sound which as we got out of the coupe and walked to¬ward the door resolved itself into the words "Oh, my God!" uttered over and over in a gasping moan.
There's some bad trouble here, said Tom exci¬tedly.
He reached up on tiptoes and peered over a circle of heads into the garage, which was lit only by a yellow light in a swinging wire basket overhead. Then he made a harsh sound in his throat, and with a violent thrusting movement of his powerful arms pushed his way through.
The circle closed up again with a running murmur of expostulation; it was a minute before I could see anything at all. Then new arrivals deranged the line, and Jordan and I were pushed suddenly inside.
Myrtle Wilson's body, wrapped in a blanket, and then in another blanket, as though she suffered from a chill in the hot night, lay on a work-table by the wall, and Tom, with his back to us, was bending over it, motionless. Next to him stood a motorcycle policeman taking down names with much sweat and correction in a little book. At first I couldn't find the source of the high, groaning words that echoed clamorously through the bare garage — then I saw Wilson standing on the raised threshold of his office, swaying back and forth and holding to the doorposts with both hands. Some man was talking to him in a low voice and attempting, from time to time, to lay a hand on his shoulder, but Wilson nei¬ther heard nor saw. His eyes would drop slowly from the swinging light to the laden table by the wall, and then jerk back to the light again, and he gave out incessantly his high, horrible call:
Oh, my Ga-od! Oh, my Ga-od! Oh, Ga-od! Oh, my Ga-od!
Presently Tom lifted his head with a jerk and, after staring around the garage with glazed eyes, addressed a mumbled incoherent remark to the police¬man.
M-a-y — the policeman was saying, "— o ——" "No, r —" corrected the man, "M-a-v-r-o ——" "Listen to me!" muttered Tom fiercely.
r said the policeman, "o ——" "o. _ " & —
g — He looked up as Tom's broad hand fell
sharply on his shoulder. "What you want, fella?" "What happened? — that's what I want to know." "Auto hit her. Ins'antly killed." "Instantly killed," repeated Tom, staring. "She ran out ina road. Son-of-a-bitch didn't even
stopus car." "There was two cars," said Michaelis, "one co-
min', one goin', see?"
Going where? asked the policeman keenly. "One goin' each way. Well, she"— his hand rose
toward the blankets but stopped half way and fell
to his side —"she ran out there an' the one comin'
from N'York knock right into her, goin' thirty or
forty miles an hour." "What's the name of this place here?" demanded
Hasn't got any name.
A pale well-dressed negro stepped near.
It was a yellow car, he said, "big yellow car. New."
See the accident? asked the policeman.
No, but the car passed me down the road, going faster'n forty. Going fifty, sixty.
Come here and let's have your name. Look out now. I want to get his name.
Some words of this conversation must have reached Wilson, swaying in the office door, for suddenly a new theme found voice among his gasping cries:
You don't have to tell me what kind of car it was! I know what kind of car it was!
Watching Tom, I saw the wad of muscle back of his shoulder tighten under his coat. He walked quickly over to Wilson and, standing in front of him, seized him firmly by the upper arms.
You've got to pull yourself together, he said with soothing gruffness.
Wilson's eyes fell upon Tom; he started up on his tiptoes and then would have collapsed to his knees had not Tom held him upright.
Listen, said Tom, shaking him a little. "I just got here a minute ago, from New York. I was bring¬ing you that coupe we've been talking about. That yellow car I was driving this afternoon wasn't mine—do you hear? I haven't seen it all afternoon."
Only the negro and I were near enough to hear what he said, but the policeman caught something in the tone and looked over with truculent eyes.
What's all that? he demanded.
I'm a friend of his. Tom turned his head but kept his hands firm on Wilson's body. "He says he knows the car that did it. ... It was a yellow car."
Some dim impulse moved the policeman to look suspiciously at Tom.
And what color's your car?
It's a blue car, a coupe.
We've come straight from New York. I said.
Someone who had been driving a little behind us confirmed this, and the policeman turned away.
Now, if you'll let. me have that name again cor¬rect —•—
Picking up Wilson like a doll, Tom carried him into the office, set him down in a chair, and came back.
If somebody'll come here and sit with him, he snapped authoritatively. He watched while the two men standing closest glanced at each other and went unwillingly into the room. Then Tom shut the door on them and came down the single step, his eyes avoiding the table. As he passed close to me he whispered: "Let's get out."
Self-consciously, with his authoritative arms break¬ing the way, we pushed through the still gather¬ing crowd, passing a hurried doctor, case in hand, who had been sent for in wild hope half an hour ago.
Tom drove slowly until we were beyond the bend — then his foot came down hard, and the cou¬pe raced along through the night. In a little while I heard a low husky sob, and saw that the tears were overflowing down his face.
The God damned coward! he whimpered. "He didn't even stop his car."
The Buchanans' house floated suddenly toward us through the dark rustling trees. Tom stopped be¬side the porch and looked up at the second floor, where two windows bloomed with light among the vines.
Daisy's home, he said. As we got out of the car he glanced at me and frowned slightly.
I ought to have dropped you in West Egg, Nick. There's nothing we can do to-night.
A change had come over him, and he spoke grave¬ly, and with decision. As we walked across the moonlight gravel to the porch he disposed of the situation in a few brisk phrases.
I'll telephone for a taxi to take you home, and while you're waiting you and Jordan better go in the kitchen and have them get you some supper — if you want any. He opened the door. "Come in."
No, thanks. But I'd be glad if you'd order me the taxi. I'll wait outside.
Jordan put her hand on my arm.
Won't you come in, Nick?
I was feeling a little sick and I wanted to be alone. But Jordan lingered for a moment more.
It's only half-past nine, she said.
I'd be damned if I'd go in; I'd had enough of all of them for one day, and suddenly that included Jordan too. She must have seen something of this in my expression, for she turned abruptly away and ran up the porch steps into the house. I sat down for a few minutes with my head in my hands, until I heard the phone taken up inside and the butler's voice calling a taxi. Then I walked slowly down the drive away from the house, intending to wait by the gate.
I hadn't gone twenty yards when I heard my name and Gatsby stepped from between two bushes into the path. I must have felt pretty weird by that time, because I could think of nothing except the luminosity of his pink suit under the moon.
What are you doing? I inquired.
Just standing here, old sport.
Somehow, that seemed a despicable occupation. For all I knew he was going to rob the house in a moment; I wouldn't have been surprised to see sini¬ster faces, the faces of "Wolfsheim's people," behind him in the dark shrubbery.
Did you see any trouble on the road? he asked after a minute.
Was she killed?
I thought so; I told Daisy I thought so. It's bet¬ter that the shock should all come at once. She stood it pretty well.
He spoke as if Daisy's reaction was the only thing that mattered.
I got to West Egg by a side road, he went on, "and left the car in my garage. I don't think anybo¬dy saw us, but of course I can't be sure."
I disliked him so much by this time that I didn't find it necessary to tell him he was wrong.
Who was the woman? he inquired.
Her name was Wilson. Her husband owns the garage. How the devil did it happen?
Well, I tried to swing the wheel — He broke off, and suddenly I guessed at the truth.
Was Daisy driving?
Yes, he said after a moment, "but of course I'll say I was. You see, when we left New York she was very nervous and she thought it would steady her to drive — and this woman rushed out at us just as we were passing a car coming the other way. It all happened in a minute, but it seemed to me that she wanted to speak to us, thought we were somebody she knew. Well, first Daisy turned away from the woman toward the other car, and then she lost her nerve and turned back. The second my hand reached the wheel I felt the shock—it must have killed her instantly."
It ripped her open ——
Don't tell me, old sport. He winced. "Anyhow— Daisy stepped on it. I tried to make her stop, but she couldn't, so I pulled on the emergency brake. Then she fell over into my lap and I drove on.
She'll be all right to-morrow, he said presently. "I'm just going to wait here and see if he tries to bother her about that unpleasantness this afternoon. She's locked herself into her room, and if he tries any brutality she's going to turn the light out and on again."
He won't touch her, I said. "He's not thinking about her."
I don't trust him, old sport.
How long are you going to wait?
All night, if necessary. Anyhow, till they all go to bed.
A new point of view occurred to me. Suppose Tom found out that Daisy had been driving. He might think he saw a connection in it — he might think anything. I looked at the house; there were two or three bright windows downstairs and the pink glow from Daisy's room on the second floor.
You wait here, I said. "I'll see if there's any sign of a commotion."
I walked back along the border of the lawn, tra¬versed the gravel softly, and tiptoed up the veranda steps. The drawing-room curtains were open, and I saw that the room was empty. Crossing the porch where we had dined that June night three months before, I came to a small rectangle of light which I guessed was the pantry window. The blind was drawn, but I found a rift at the sill.
Daisy and Tom were sitting opposite each other at the kitchen table, with a plate of cold fried chicken between them, and two bottles of ale. He was talking intently across the table at her, and in his earnestness his hand had fallen upon and covered her own. Once in a while she looked up at him and nodded in agreement.
They weren't happy, and neither of them had touched the chicken or the ale — and yet they weren't unhappy either. There was an unmistakable air of natural intimacy about the picture, and anybody would have said that they were conspiring together.
As I tiptoed from the porch I heard my taxi feel¬ing its way along the dark road toward the house. Gatsby was waiting where I had left him in the drive.
Is it all quiet up there? he asked anxiously.
Yes, it's all quiet. I hesitated. You'd better come home and get some sleep."
He shook his head.
I want to wait here till Daisy goes to bed. Good night, old sport.
He put his hands in his coat pockets and turned back eagerly to his scrutiny of the house, as though my presence marred the sacredness of the vigil. So I walked away and left him standing there in the moonlight — watching over nothing.
I couldn't sleep all night; a fog-horn was groan¬ing incessantly on the Sound, and I tossed half-sick between grotesque reality and savage, frightening dreams. Toward dawn I heard a taxi go up Gatsby's drive, and immediately I jumped out of bed and began to dress — I felt that I had something to tell him, something to warn him about, and morning would be too late.
Crossing his lawn, I saw that his front door was still open and he was leaning against a table in the hall, heavy with dejection or sleep.
Nothing happened, he said wanly. "I waited, and about four o'clock she came to the window and stood there for a minute and then turned out the light."
His house had never seemed so enormous to me as it did that night when we hunted through the great rooms for cigarettes. We pushed aside cur¬tains that were like pavilions, and felt over innume¬rable feet of dark wall for electric light switches — once I tumbled with a sort of splash upon the keys of a ghostly piano. There was an inexplicable amount of dust everywhere, and the rooms were musty, as though they hadn't been aired for many days. I found the humidor on an unfamiliar table, with two stale, dry cigarettes inside. Throwing open the French windows of the drawing-room, we sat smoking out into the darkness.
You ought to go away, I said. "It's pretty cer¬tain they'll trace your car."
Go away now, old sport?
Go to Atlantic City for a week, or up to Mont¬real.
He wouldn't consider it. He couldn't possibly leave Daisy until he knew what she was going to do. He was clutching at some last hope and I couldn't bear to shake him free.
It was this night that he told me the strange sto¬ry of his youth with Dan Cody — told it to me be¬cause "Jay Gatsby" had broken up like glass against Tom's hard malice, and the long secret extra¬vaganza was played out. I think that he would have acknowledged anything now, without reserve, but he wanted to talk about Daisy.
She was the first "nice" girl he had ever known. In various unrevealed capacities he had come in contact with such people, but always with indiscern¬ible barbed wire between. He found her excitingly desirable. He went to her house, at first with other officers from Camp Taylor, then alone. It amazed him — he had never been in such a beautiful house before. But what gave it an air of breathless inten¬sity was that Daisy lived there — it was as casual a thing to her as his tent out at camp was to him. There was a ripe mystery about it, a hint of bed¬rooms up-stairs more beautiful and cool than other bedrooms, of gay and radiant activities taking place through its corridors, and of romances that were not musty and laid away already in lavender, but fresh and breathing and redolent of this year's shi¬ning motor-cars and of dances whose flowers were scarcely withered. It excited him, too, that many men had already loved Daisy—it increased her value in his eyes. He felt their presence all about the house, pervading the air with the shades and echoes of still vibrant emotions.
But he knew that he was in Daisy's house by a colossal accident. However glorious might be his future as Jay Gatsby, he was at present a penniless young man without a past, and at any moment the invisible cloak of his uniform might slip from his shoulders. So he made the most of his time. He took what he could get, ravenously and unscrupulously— eventually he took Daisy one still October night, took her because he had no real right to touch her hand.
He might have despised himself, for he had cer¬tainly taken her under false pretenses. I don't mean that he had traded on his phantom millions, but he had deliberately given Daisy a sense of security;
he let her believe that he was a person from much the same stratum as herself — that he was fully able to take care of her. As a matter of fact, he had no such facilities — he had no comfortable family standing behind him, and he was liable at the whim of an impersonal government to be blown anywhere about the world.
But he didn't despise himself and it didn't turn out as he had imagined. He had intended, probably, to take what he could and go — but now he found that he had committed himself to the following of a grail. He knew that Daisy was extraordinary, but he didn't realize just how extraordinary a "nice" girl could be. She vanished into her rich house, into her rich, full life, leaving Gatsby — nothing. He felt married to her, that was all.
When they met again, two days later, it was Gats¬by who was breathless, who was, somehow, betrayed. Her porch was bright with the bought luxury of star-shine; the wicker of the settee squeaked fashion¬ably as she turned toward him and he kissed her curious and lovely mouth. She had caught a cold, and it made her voice huskier and more charming than ever, and Gatsby was overwhelmingly aware of the youth and mystery that wealth imprisons and preserves, of the freshness of many clothes, and of Daisy, gleaming like silver, safe and proud above the hot struggles of the poor.
I can't describe to you how surprised I was to find out I loved her, old sport. I even hoped for a while that she'd throw me over, but she didn't, be¬cause she was in love with me too. She thought I knew a lot because I knew different things from her . . . Well, there I was, 'way off my ambitions, getting deeper in love every minute, and all of a sudden I didn't care. What was the use of doing great things if I could have a better time telling her what I was going to do?
On the last afternoon before he went abroad, he sat with Daisy in his arms for a long, silent time. It was a cold fall day, with fire in the room and her cheeks flushed. Now and then she moved and he changed his arm a little, and once he kissed her dark shining hair. The afternoon had made them tranquil for a while, as if to give them a deep me¬mory for the long parting the next day promised. They had never been closer in their month of love, nor communicated more profoundly one with an¬other, than when she brushed silent lips against his coat's shoulder or when he touched the end of her fingers, gently, as though she were asleep.
He did extraordinarily well in the war. He was a captain before he went to the front, and following the Argonne battles he got his majority and the command of the divisional machine-guns. After the Armistice he tried frantically to get home, but some complication or misunderstanding sent him to Oxford instead. He was worried now — there was a quality of nervous despair in Daisy's letters. She didn't see why he couldn't come. She was feeling the pressure of the world outside, and she wanted to see him and feel his presence beside her and be reassured that she was doing the right thing after all.
For Daisy was young and her artificial world was redolent of orchids and pleasant, cheerful snobbery and orchestras which set the rhythm of the year, summing up the sadness and suggestiveness of life in new tunes. All night the saxophones wailed the hopeless comment of the Beale Street Blues while a hundred pairs of golden and silver slippers shuffled the shining dust. At the gray tea hour there were always rooms that throbbed incessantly with this low, sweet fever, while fresh faces drifted here and there like rose petals blown by the sad horns around the floor.
Through this twilight universe Daisy began to move again with the season; suddenly she was again keeping half a dozen dates a day with half a dozen men, and drowsing asleep at dawn with the beads and chiffon of an evening dress tangled among dying orchids on the floor beside her bed. And all the time something within her was crying for a decision. She wanted her life shaped now, im¬mediately — and the decision must be made by some force — of love, of money, of unquestionable practi¬cality — that was close at hand.
That force took shape in the middle of spring with the arrival of Tom Buchanan. There was a whole¬some bulkiness about his person and his position, and Daisy was flattered. Doubtless there was a cer¬tain struggle and a certain relief. The letter reached Gatsby while he was still at Oxford.
It was dawn now on Long Island and we went about opening the rest of the windows downstairs, filling the house with gray-turning, gold-turning light. The shadow of a tree fell abruptly across the dew and ghostly birds began to sing among the blue leaves. There was a slow, pleasant movement
in the air, scarcely a wind, promising a cool, lovely day.
I don't think she ever loved him, Gatsby turned around from a window and looked at me challengingly. "You must remember, old sport, she was very excited this afternoon. He told her those things in a way that frightened her — that made it look as if I was some kind of cheap sharper. And the result was she hardly knew what she was saying." He sat down gloomily.
Of course she might have loved him just for a minute, when they were first married — and loved me more even then, do you see? Suddenly he came out with a curious remark. "In any case," he said, "it was just personal." What could you make of that, except to suspect some intensity in his conception of the affair that couldn't be measured?
He came back from France when Tom and Daisy were still on their wedding trip, and made a miser¬able but irresistible journey to Louisville on the last of his army pay. He stayed there a week, walk¬ing the streets where their footsteps had clicked together through the November night and revisiting the out-of-the-way places to which they had driven in her white car. Just as Daisy's house had always seemed to him more mysterious and gay than other houses, so his idea of the city itself, even though she was gone from it, was pervaded with a melan¬choly beauty.
He left, feeling that if he had searched harder, he might have found her — that he was leaving her behind. The day-coach — he was penniless now — was hot. He went out to the open vestibule and sat down on a folding-chair, and the station slid away and the backs of unfamiliar buildings moved by. Then out into the spring fields, where a yellow trol¬ley raced them for a minute with the people in it who might once have seen the pale magic of her face along the casual street.
The track curved and now it was going away from the sun, which, as it sank lower, seemed to spread itself in benediction over the vanishing city where she had drawn her breath. He stretched out his hand desperately as if to snatch only a wisp of air, to save a fragment of the spot that she had made lovely for him. But it was all going by too fast now for his blurred eyes and he knew that he had lost that part of it, the freshest and the best, forever.
It was nine o'clock when we finished breakfast and went out on the porch. The night had made a sharp difference in the weather and there was an autumn flavor in the air. The gardener, the last one of Gatsby's former servants, came to the foot of the steps.
I'm going to drain the pool today, Mr. Gatsby, Leaves'11 start falling pretty soon, and then there's always trouble with the pipes.
Don't do it to-day, Gatsby answered. He turned to me apologetically. "You know, old sport, I've never used that pool all summer?"
I looked at my watch and stood up.
Twelve minutes to my train.
I didn't want to go to the city. I wasn't worth a de¬cent stroke of work, but it was more than that — I didn't want to leave Gatsby. I missed that train, and then another, before I could get myself away.
I'll call you up, I said finally.
Do, old sport.
I'll call you about noon.
We walked slowly down the steps.
I suppose Daisy'11 call too. He looked at me anxiously, as if he hoped I'd corroborate this.
I suppose so.
We shook hands and I started away. Just before I reached the hedge I remembered something and turned around.
They're a rotten crowd, I shouted across the lawn. "You're worth the whole damn bunch put to¬gether."
I've always been glad I said that. It was the only compliment I ever gave him, because I disapproved of him from beginning to end. First he nodded po¬litely, and then his face broke into that radiant and understanding smile, as if we'd been in ecstatic ca¬hoots on that fact all the time. His gorgeous pink rag of a suit made a bright spot of color against the white steps, and I thought of the night when I first came to his ancestral home, three months be¬fore. The lawn and drive had been crowded with the faces of those who guessed at his corruption — and he had stood on those steps, concealing his in¬corruptible dream, as he waved them good-by.
I thanked him for his hospitality. We were always thanking him for that — I and the others.
Good-by, I called. "I enjoyed breakfast, Gats¬by."
Up in the city. I tried for a while to list the quo¬tations on an interminable amount of stock, then I fell asleep in my swivel-chair. Just before noon the phone woke me, and I started up with sweat breaking out on my forehead. It was Jordan Baker;
she often called me up at this hour because the un¬certainty of her own movements between hotels and clubs and private houses made her hard to find in any other way. Usually her voice came over the wire as something fresh and cool, as if a divot from a green golf-links had come sailing in at the office window, but this morning it seemed harsh and dry.
I've left Daisy's house, she said. "I'm at Hemp-stead, and I'm going down to Southampton this af¬ternoon."
Probably it had been tactful to leave Daisy's house, but the act annoyed me, and her next re¬mark made me rigid.
You weren't so nice to me last night.
How could it have mattered then?
Silence for a moment. Then:
However — I want to see you.
I want to see you, too.
Suppose I don't go to Southampton, and come into town this afternoon?
No — I don't think this afternoon.
It's impossible this afternoon. Various ——
We talked like that for a while, and then abruptly we weren't talking any longer. I don't know which of us hung up with a sharp click, but I know I didn't care. I couldn't have talked to her across a tea-table that day if I never talked to her again in this world.
I called Gatsby's house a few minutes later, but the line was busy. I tried four times; finally an exasperated central told me the wire was being kept open for long distance from Detroit. Taking out my time-table, I drew a small circle around the three-fifty train. Then I leaned back in my chair and tried to think. It was just noon.
When I passed the ashheaps on the train that morning I had crossed deliberately to the other side of the car. I supposed there'd be a curious crowd around there all day with little boys searching for dark sports in the dust, and some garrulous man tell¬ing over and over what had happened, until it be¬came less and less real even to him and he could tell it no longer, and Myrtle Wilson's tragic achieve¬ment was forgotten. Now I want to go back a little and tell what happened at the garage after we left there the night before.
They had difficulty in locating the sister, Catherine. She must have broken her rule against drinking that night, for when she arrived she was stupid with liquor and unable to understand that the am¬bulance had already gone to Flushing. When they convinced her of this, she immediately fainted, as if that was the intolerable part of the affair. Some¬one, kind or curious, took her in his car and drove her in the wake of her sister's body.
Until long after midnight a changing crowd lapped up against the front of the garage, while George Wilson rocked himself back and forth on the couch inside. For a while the door of the office was open, and every one who came into the garage glanced irresistibly through it. Finally some one said it was a shame, and closed the door. Michaelis and several other men were with him; first, four or five men, later two or three men. Still later Michaelis had to ask the last stranger to wait there fifteen minutes longer, while he went back to his own place and made a pot of coffee. After that, he stayed there alone with Wilson until dawn.
About three o'clock the quality of Wilson's inco¬herent muttering changed — he grew quieter and began to talk about the yellow car. He announced that he had a way of finding out whom the yellow car belonged to, and then he blurted out that a couple of months ago his wife had come from the city with her face bruised and her nose swollen.
But when he heard himself say this, he flinched and began to cry "Oh, my God!" again in his groan¬ing voice. Michaelis made a clumsy attempt to dis¬tract him.
How long have you been married, George? Come on there, try and sit still a minute and answer my question. How long have you been married?
Ever had any children? Come on, George, sit still — I asked you a question. Did you ever have any children?
The hard brown beetles kept thudding against the dull light, and whenever Michaelis heard a car go tearing along the road outside it sounded to him like the car that hadn't stopped a few hours before. He didn't like to go into the garage, because the work bench was stained where the body had been lying, so he moved uncomfortably around the office — he knew every object in it before morning — and from time to time sat down beside Wilson try¬ing to keep him more quiet.
Have you got a church you go to sometimes, George? Maybe even if you haven't been there for a long time? Maybe I could call up the church and get a priest to come over and he could talk to you, see?
Don't belong to any.
You ought to have a church, George, for times like this. You must have gone to church once. Didn't you get married in a church? Listen, George, listen to me. Didn't you get married in a church?
That was a long time ago.
The effort of answering broke the rhythm of his rocking — for a moment he was silent. Then the same half-knowing, half-bewildered look came back into his faded eyes.
Look in the drawer there, he said, pointing at the desk.
That drawer — that one.
Michaelis opened the drawer nearest his hand. There was nothing in it but a small, expensive dog-leash, made of leather and braided silver. It was apparently new.
This? he inquired, holding it up.
Wilson stared and nodded.
I found it yesterday afternoon. She tried to tell me about it, but I knew it was something funny.
You mean your wife bought it?
She had it wrapped in tissue paper on her bu¬reau.
Michaelis didn't see anything odd in that, and he gave Wilson a dozen reasons why his wife might have bought the dog-leash. But conceivably Wilson had heard some of these same explanations before, from Myrtle, because he began saying "Oh, my God!" again in a whisper—his comforter left several explanations in the air.
Then he killed her, said Wilson. His mouth dropped open suddenly.
I have a way of finding out.
You're morbid, George, said his friend. "This has been a strain to you and you don't know what you're saying. You'd better try and sit quiet till morning."
He murdered her.
It was an accident, George.
Wilson shook his head. His eyes narrowed and his mouth widened slightly with the ghost of a superior "Hm!"
I know, he said definitely, "I'm one of these trusting fellas and I don't think any harm to nobo¬dy, but when I get to know a thing I know it. It was the man in that car. She ran out to speak to him and he wouldn't stop."
Michaelis had seen this too, but it hadn't oc¬curred to him that there was any special significance in it. He believed that Mrs. Wilson had been run¬ning away from her husband, rather than trying to stop any particular car.
How could she of been like that?
She's a deep one, said Wilson, as if that answered the question. "Ah-h-h ——"
He began to rock again, and Michaelis stood twisting the leash in his hand.
Maybe you got some friend that I could tele¬phone for, George?
This was a forlorn hope — he was almost sure that Wilson had no friend: there was not enough of him for his wife. He was glad a little later when he noticed a change in the room, a blue quickening by the window, and realized that dawn wasn't far off. About five o'clock it was blue enough outside to snap off the light.
Wilson's glazed eyes turned out to the ashheaps, where small gray clouds took on fantastic shapes and scurried here and there in the faint dawn wind.
I spoke to her, he muttered, after a long silence. "I told her she might fool me but she couldn't fool God. I took her to the window"— with an ef¬fort he got up and walked to the rear window and leaned with his face pressed against it —"and I said 'God knows what you've been doing, every¬thing you've been doing. You may fool me, but you can't fool God!' "
Standing behind him, Michaelis saw with a shock that he was looking at the eyes of Doctor T. J. Eckleburg which had just emerged, pale and enormous, from the dissolving night.
God sees everything, repeated Wilson.
That's an advertisement, Michaelis assured him. Something made him turn away from the window and look back into the room. But Wilson stood there a long time, his face close to the window pane, nodding into the twilight.
By six o'clock Michaelis was worn out, and grate¬ful for the sound of a car stopping outside. It was one of the watchers of the night before who had promised to come back, so he cooked breakfast for three, which he and the other man ate together. Wilson was quieter now, and Michaelis went home to sleep; when he awoke four hours later and hur¬ried back to the garage, Wilson was gone.
His movements — he was on foot all the time — were afterward traced to Port Roosevelt and then to Gad's Hill, where he bought a sandwich that he didn't eat, and a cup of coffee. He must have been tired and walking slowly, for he didn't reach Gad's Hill until noon. Thus far there was no difficulty in accounting for his time — there were boys who had seen a man "acting sort of crazy," and motorists at whom he stared oddly from the side of the road. Then for three hours he disappeared from view. The police, on the strength of what he said to Michaelis, that he "had a way of finding out," supposed that he spent that time going from garage to garage there¬about, inquiring for a yellow car. On the other hand, no garage man who had seen him ever came forward, and perhaps he had an easier, surer way of finding out what he wanted to know. By halfpast two he was in West Egg, where he asked some one the way to Gatsby's house. So by that time he knew Gatsby's name.
At two o'clock Gatsby put on his bathing-suit and left word with the butler that if any one phoned word was to be brought to him at the pool. He stopped at the garage for a pneumatic mattress that had amused his guests during the summer, and the chauffeur helped him pump it up. Then he gave in¬structions that the open car wasn't to be taken out under any circumstances—and this was strange, because the front right fender needed repair.
Gatsby shouldered the mattress and started for the pool. Once he stopped and shifted it a little, and the chauffeur asked him if he needed help, but he shook his head and in a moment disappeared among the yellowing trees.
No telephone message arrived, but the butler went without his sleep and waited for it until four o'clock — until long after there was any one to give it to if it came. I have an idea that Gatsby himself didn't believe it would come, and perhaps he no lon¬ger cared. If that was true he must have felt that he had lost the old warm world, paid a high price for living too long with a single dream. He must have looked up at an unfamiliar sky through Frigh¬tening leaves and shivered as he found what a gro¬tesque thing a rose is and how raw the sunlight was upon the scarcely created grass. A new world, material without being real, where poor ghosts, breathing dreams like air, drifted fortuitously about . . . like that ashen, fantastic figure gliding toward him through the amorphous trees.
The chauffeur — he was one of Wolfsheim's proteges — heard the shots — afterward he could only say that he hadn't thought anything much about them. I drove from the station directly to Gatsby's house and my rushing anxiously up the front steps was the first thing that alarmed any one. But they knew then, I firmly believe. With scarcely a word said, four of us, the chauffeur, butler, gardener, and I, hurried down to the pool.
There was a faint, barely perceptible movement of the water as the fresh flow from one end urged its way toward the drain at the other. With little ripples that were hardly the shadows of waves, the laden mattress moved irregularly down the pool. A small gust of wind that scarcely corrugated the surface was enough to disturb its accidental course with its accidental burden. The touch of a cluster of leaves revolved it slowly, tracing, like the leg of transit, a thin red circle in the water,
It was after we started with Gatsby toward the house that the gardener saw Wilson's body a little way off in the grass, and the holocaust was com¬plete.
After two years I remember the rest of that day, and that night and the next day, only as an endless drill of police and photographers and newspaper men in and out of Gatsby's front door. A rope stretched across the main gate and a policeman by it kept out the curious, but little boys soon discovered that they could enter through my yard, and there were always a few of them clustered open-mouthed about the pool. Some one with a positive manner, perhaps a detective, used the expression "madman" as he bent over Wilson's body that afternoon, and the adventitious authority of his voice set the key for the newspaper reports next morning.
Most of those reports were a nightmare — gro¬tesque, circumstantial, eager, and untrue. When Michaelis's testimony at the inquest brought to light Wilson's suspicions of his wife I thought the whole tale would shortly be served up in racy pasqui¬nade—but Catherine, who might have said anything, didn't say a word. She showed a surprising amount of character about it too — looked at the coroner with determined eyes under that corrected brow of hers, and swore that her sister had never seen Gats¬by, that her sister was completely happy with her husband, that her sister had been into no mischief whatever. She convinced herself of it, and cried into her handkerchief, as if the very suggestion was more than she could endure. So Wilson was reduced to a man "deranged by grief" in order that the case might remain in its simplest form. And it rested there.
But all this part of it seemed remote and unes¬sential. I found myself on Gatsby's side, and alone. From the moment I telephoned news of the catastro¬phe to West Egg Village, every surmise about him, and every practical question, was referred to me. At first I was surprised and confused; then, as he lay in his house and didn't move or breathe or speak, hour upon hour, it grew upon me that I was responsible, because no one else was interested — interested, I mean, with that intense personal inte¬rest to which every one has some vague right at the end.
I called up Daisy half an hour after we found him, called her instinctively and without hesitation. But she and Tom had gone away early that after¬noon, and taken baggage with them.
Left no address?
Say when they'd be back?
Any idea where they are? How I could reach them?
I don't know. Can't say.
I wanted to get somebody for him. I wanted to go into the room where he lay and reassure him: "I'll get somebody for you, Gatsby. Don't worry. Just trust me and I'll get somebody for you ——"
Meyer Wolfsheim's name wasn't in the phone book. The butler gave me his office address on Broadway, and I called Information, but by the time I had the number it was long after five, and no one answered the phone.
Will you ring again?
I've rung them three times.
It's very important.
Sorry. I'm afraid no one's there.
I went back to the drawing-room and thought for an instant that they were chance visitors, all these official people who suddenly filled it. But, as they drew back the sheet and looked at Gatsby with un¬moved eyes, his protest continued in my brain:
Look here, old sport, you've got to get somebody for me. You've got to try hard. I can't go through this alone.
Some one started to ask me questions, but I broke away and going up-stairs looked hastily through the unlocked parts of his desk — he'd never told me definitely that his parents were dead. But there was nothing — only the picture of Dan Cody, a token of forgotten violence, staring down from the wall.
Next morning I sent the butler to New York with a letter to Wolfsheim, which asked for information and urged him to come out on the next train. That request seemed superfluous when I wrote it. I was sure he'd start when he saw the newspapers, just as I was sure there'd be a wire from Daisy before noon — but neither a wire nor Mr. Wolfsheim ar¬rived; no one arrived except more police and photo¬graphers and newspaper men. When the butler brought back Wolfsheim's answer I began to have a feeling of defiance, of scornful solidarity between Gatsby and me against them all.
Dear Mr. Carraway. This has been one of the most terrible shocks of my life to me I hardly can believe it that it is true at all. Such a mad act as that man did should make us all think. I cannot come down now as I am tied up in some very important business and cannot get mixed up in this thing now. If there is anything I can do a little later let me know in a letter by Edgar. I hardly know where I am when I hear about a thing like this and am completely knocked down and out.
Yours truly Meyer Wolfsheim
and then hasty addenda beneath:
Let me know about the funeral etc do not know his family at all.
When the phone rang that afternoon and Long Distance said Chicago was calling I thought this would be Daisy at last. But the connection came through as a man's voice, very thin and far away.
This is Slagle speaking . . .
Yes? The name was unfamiliar.
Hell of a note, isn't it? Get my wire?
There haven't been any wires.
Young Parke's in trouble, he said rapidly. "They picked him up when he handed the bonds over the counter. They got a circular from New York giving'em the numbers just five minutes before. What d'you know about that, hey? You never can tell in these hick towns ——"
Hello! I interrupted breathlessly. "Look here — this isn't Mr. Gatsby. Mr. Gatsby's dead."
There was a long silence on the other end of the wire, followed by an exclamation ... then a quick squawk as the connection was broken.
I think it was on the third day that a telegram signed Henry C. Gatz arrived from a. town in Min¬nesota. It said only that the sender was leaving im¬mediately and to postpone the funeral until he came.
It was Gatsby's father, a solemn old man, very helpless and dismayed, bundled up in a long cheap ulster against the warm September day. His eyes leaked continuously with excitement, and when I took the bag and umbrella from his hands he began to pull so incessantly at his sparse gray beard that I had difficulty in getting off his coat. He was on the point of collapse, so I took him into the music room and made him sit down while I sent for some¬thing to eat. But he wouldn't eat, and the glass of milk spilled from his trembling hand.
I saw it in the Chicago newspaper, he said. "It was all in the Chicago newspaper. I started right away."
I didn't know how to reach you.
His eyes, seeing nothing, moved ceaselessly about the room.
It was a madman, he said. "He must have been mad."
Wouldn't you like some coffee? I urged him.
I don't want anything. I'm all right now, Mr.——
Well, I'm all right now. Where have they got Jimmy?
I took him into the drawing-room, where his son lay, and left him there. Some little boys had come up on the steps and were looking into the hall;
when I told them who had arrived, they went reluc¬tantly away.
After a little while Mr. Gatz opened the door and came out, his mouth ajar, his face flushed slightly, his eyes leaking isolated and unpunctual tears. He had reached an age where death no longer has the quality of ghastly surprise, and when he looked around him now for the first time and saw the height and splendor of the hall and the great rooms opening out from it into other rooms, his grief be¬gan to be mixed with an awed pride. I helped him to a bedroom up-stairs; while he took off his coat and vest I told him that all arrangements had been deferred until he came.
I didn't know what you'd want, Mr. Gatsby——
Gatz is my name.
— Mr. Gatz. I thought you might want to take the body West.
He shook his head.
Jimmy always liked it better down East. He rose up to his position in the East. Were you a friend of my boy's, Mr.——?
We were close friends.
He had a big future before him, you know. He was only a young man, but he had a lot of brain power here.
He touched his head impressively, and I nod¬ded.
If he'd of lived, he'd of been a great man. A man like James J. Hill. He'd of helped build up the country.
That's true, I said, uncomfortably.
He fumbled at the embroidered coverlet, trying to take it from the bed, and lay down stiffly — was in¬stantly asleep.
That night an obviously frightened person called up, and demanded to know who I was before he would give his name.
This is Mr. Carraway, I said.
Oh! He sounded relieved. "This is Klipspringer."
I was relieved too, for that seemed to promise an¬other friend at Gatsby's grave. I didn't want it to be in the papers and draw a sight-seeing crowd, so I'd been calling up a few people myself. They were hard to find.
The funeral's tomorrow, I said. "Three o'clock, here at the house. I wish you'd tell anybody who'd be interested."
Oh, I will, he broke out hastily. "Of course I'm not likely to see anybody, but if I do."
His tone made me suspicious.
Of course you'll be there yourself.
Well, I'll certainly try. What I called up about is ——
Wait a minute, I interrupted. "How about say¬ing you'll come?"
Well, the fact is — the truth of the matter is that I'm staying with some people up here in Green¬wich, and they rather expect me to be with them tomorrow. In fact, there's a sort of picnic or some¬thing. Of course I'll do my very best to get away.
I ejaculated an unrestrained "Huh!" and he must have heard me, for he went on nervously:
What I called up about was a pair of shoes I left there. I wonder if it'd be too much trouble to have the butler send them on. You see, they're ten¬nis shoes, and I'm sort of helpless without them. My address is care of B. F.——
I didn't hear the rest of the name, because I hung up the receiver.
After that I felt a certain shame for Gatsby — one gentleman to whom I telephoned implied that he had got what he deserved. However, that was my fault, for he was one of those who used to sneer most bitterly at Gatsby on the courage of Gatsby's liquor, and I should have known better than to call him.
The morning of the funeral I went up to New York to see Meyer Wolfsheim; I couldn't seem to reach him any other way. The door that I pushed open, on the advice of an elevator boy, was marked "The Swastika Holding Company," and at first there didn't seem to be any one inside. But when I'd shouted "hello" several times in vain, an argu¬ment broke out behind a partition, and presently a lovely Jewess appeared at an interior door and scrutinized me with black hostile eyes.
Nobody's in, she said. "Mr. Wolfsheim's gone to Chicago."
The first part of this was obviously untrue, for some one had begun to whistle "The Rosary," tune¬lessly, inside.
Please say that Mr. Carraway wants to see him.
I can't get him back from Chicago, can I?
At this moment a voice, unmistakably Wolfsheim's, called "Stella!" from the other side of the door.
Leave your name on the desk, she said quickly. "I'll give it to him when he gets back."
But I know he's there.
She took a step toward me and began to slide her hands indignantly up and down her hips.
You young men think you can force your way in here any time, she scolded. "We're getting sickantired of it. When I say he's in Chicago, he's in Chicago."
I mentioned Gatsby.
Oh-h! She looked at me over again. "Will you just — What was your name?"
She vanished. In a moment Meyer Wolfsheim stood solemnly in the doorway, holding out both hands, He drew me into his office, remarking in a reverent voice that it was a sad time for all of us, and of¬fered me a cigar.
My memory goes back to when first I met him, he said. "A young major just out of the army and covered over with medals he got in the war. He was so hard up he had to keep on wearing his uniform because he couldn't buy some regular clothes. First time I saw him was when he come into Winebrenner's poolroom at Forty-third Street and asked for a job. He hadn't eat anything for a couple of days. 'Come on have some lunch with me,' I said. He ate more than four dollars' worth of food in half an hour."
Did you start him in business? I inquired.
Start him! I made him.
I raised him up out of nothing, right out of the gutter. I saw right away he was a fine-appearing, gentlemanly young man, and when he told me he was an Oggsford I knew I could use him good. I got him to join up in the American Legion and he used to stand high there. Right off he did some work for a client of mine up to Albany. We were so thick like that in everything— he held up two bul¬bous fingers —"always together."
I wondered if .this partnership had included the World's Series transaction in 1919.
Now he's dead, I said after a moment. "You were his closest friend, so I know you'll want to come to his funeral this afternoon."
I'd like to come.
Well, come then.
The hair in his nostrils quivered slightly, and as he shook his head his eyes filled with tears.
I can't do it — I can't get mixed up in it, he said,
There's nothing to get mixed up in. It's all over now.
When a man gets killed I never like to get mixed up in it any way. I keep out. When I was a young man it was different — if a friend of mine died, no matter how, I stuck with them to the end. You may think that's sentimental, but I mean it— to the bitter end.
I saw that for some reason of his own he was de¬termined not to come, so I stood up.
Are you a college man? he inquired suddenly.
For a moment I thought he was going to suggest a "gonnegtion," but he only nodded and shook my hand.
Let us learn to show our friendship for a man when he is alive and not after he is dead, he sug¬gested. "After that, my own rule is to let everything alone."
When I left his office the sky had turned dark and I got back to West Egg in a drizzle. After changing my clothes I went next door and found Mr. Gatz walking up and down excitedly in the hall. His pride in his son and in his son's possessions was con¬tinually increasing and now he had something to show me.
Jimmy sent me this picture. He took out his wal¬let with trembling fingers. "Look there."
It was a photograph of the house, cracked in the corners and dirty with many hands. He pointed out every detail to me eagerly. "Look there!" and then sought admiration from my eyes. He had shown it so often that I think it' was more real to him now than the house itself.
Jimmy sent it to me. I think it's a very pretty picture. It shows up well.
Very well. Had you seen him lately?
He come out to see me two years ago and bought me the house I live in now. Of course we was broke up when he run off from home, but I see now there was a reason for it. He knew he had a big future in front of him. And ever since he made a success he was very generous with me.
He seemed reluctant to put away the picture, held it for another minute, lingeringly, before my eyes. Then he returned the wallet and pulled from his pocket a ragged old copy of a book called Hopa-long Cassidy.
Look here, this is a book he had when he was a boy. It just shows you.
He opened it at the back cover and turned it around for me to see. On the last fly-leaf was prin¬ted the word SCHEDULE, and the date September 12, 1906. And underneath:
Rise from bed ............ 6.00 A.M.
Dumbbell exercise and wall-scaling .... 6.15—6.30 “
Study electricity, etc. .......... 7.15—8.15 “
Work .......... ..... 8.30 - 4.30 P.M.
Baseball and sports .......... 4.30—5.00 “
Practice elocution, poise and how to attain it 5.00—6.00 “